I’d had these images ready to go on the 3rd. I’d uploaded them here and just never wrote anything out. The 10th passed and well, it’s now the 26th and I’m finally getting around to it. Obviously, I was struggling to write. Writing is the very hardest part of all of this. I don’t want to always just post quick blurbs of generic “stuff” on here. I want to be real and raw sometimes, like the images that I try to capture. There is time for pretty, and joyful, and fun, and also not so fun. And most of the times, the words don’t come. But right now they do, so I’m writing.
This photography thing, it’s a blessing and a curse. It comes and goes in waves of joy, excitement, learning, practice, feeling small, trying to keep up, feeling not good enough, trying to not lose that innate voice inside that is inside me while being completely surrounded everywhere I look with other’s work, and then back again. There are few things that bring me as much joy, and pain, as photography. I think that’s why I value it though. Anything that truly matters in life is work. It’s putting in the effort, day-to-day, when it’s easy and when it’s hard. Those hard times make it even more valuable when you have the good.
Capturing my own family’s story, in 10 images, (which for me are often not part of one specific day, but little moments scattered though a month that mattered to me, even if they’re not the very best images I’ve ever taken) is so hard sometimes. I don’t know why. Or maybe I do. I shoot images of them all month long. But then I analyze what to share, what looks good, what will the other people in the group think of my work. When it comes down to it though, in this project, for me, it’s about whatever images mean the most to me that month. It won’t necessarily be something anyone else understands, but this is for me. I want to be able to do a search for Project 10 and see 120 images from each year that really meant something to me and my family. Little moments of my children’s lives that I’m capturing however I can, even if not the most beautifully, or perfectly, but that I’m not missing. And that’s why photography is everything to me, and hopefully someday, this work is everything to them too.
Project Ten is made up of a group of talented photographers who are determined to document their own lives and not just the lives of their clients. Ten photos from our everyday lives on the tenth of every month. Check back monthly and be sure to check out all the other extremely talented women below!
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